I saw my therapist yesterday and it turned out better than I thought. It’s nice to hear from a professional that in spite of all the crap that’s happened in the past 6 months, I’m actually doing really well. I could’ve made excuses and phoned it in, but I didn’t. If anything, I’ve made more of an effort to get out of bed, present myself well, and do my best. I put on make up every day this past week. That’s extremely unusual for me for those keeping score at home. I even painted my nails and they’re still in pretty good shape. I’m hell on manicures and my home job is holding up better than the last one I paid for. Woohoo! Speaking of…
Y’all I’m a woman possessed. Bauble Bar, Urban Decay, and Julep are my new crack. Bauble Bar has definitely inspired me to mix up my jewelry routine. Usually I wear the same rotation of 3 rings, 1 necklace, 3-4 pairs of earrings, and my watch. My watch is cute and I get a lot of compliments (a Target knockoff of the Kenneth Cole jeweled watch), but it’s not a necessity. I always have some kind of other time keeping device with me. When I’m at work I’ve got my computer. When I’m out and about, I always have my phone on me. I have a set of really cute bangles I got for Christmas last year and several other fun bracelets. However I never wear them because I always have my watch on my left arm. I don’t like wearing bracelets on my right arm because they get in the way. Now that I’ve discovered Bauble Bar, I’m all about fun new pieces. So far I’ve ordered a ring, another set of bangles, and a necklace. Yesterday at the thrift store, I picked up a great necklace and another set of bangles for $2 total. That place is total crack, too. The deals I get there are ridiculously awesome. But back to my point. They partner with Tarte and had suggested trying a colored eyeliner instead of the standard black. I tend to go for a bold lip and more subdued eyes, but again, perhaps experimentation isn’t a bad thing. Then I remembered the last time I was in Ulta, Urban Decay had a bunch of colored liquid liners. I’m a pretty devoted liquid liner girl mostly because I can never get the pencil ones to stay one. I have hazel eyes and according to the internet, that gives me a lot more options. Lucky for me, purple is one of my favorite colors. This will either turn out awesome or be a pretty epic disaster. I’m going to believe the former. And clearly this means I must experiment with more subdued lips.
I found Julep through another site I visit, Free Kibble and Free Kibble Kat (great causes, btw. Definitely check them out). I figured why not support a sponsor of a cause I support? As I said, I’m pretty rough on manicures. My toes are rarely not painted especially this time of year. Unpainted toenails are a sin in my world. There was a deal for a free intro box and who can pass that up? They have a little quiz to figure out what’s your style. Apparently I’m between “It Girl” and “Classic with a Twist”. I never particularly thought of myself as an it girl, but I’m okay with that. I’m anxiously awaiting the arrival of my new nail colors to try out. And now that I know a little top coat goes a long way, I may not destroy them the way I used to. Most of the stuff should arrive this week and I can’t wait to start experimenting.
As always, I’m still a fashionista. Now that I’ve lost so much weight, it’s provided the opportunity to take stock of my wardrobe. I may get some of the pants I really love tailored. I hate to give them up for several reasons, not the least of which is I can wear most of them well into fall around here. Volunteering at the thrift store has also helped me source some recommendations for alterations, I just have to actually get off my butt and do it. I’m pretty happy with most of the pieces that fit me. The thrift store is going to get a large gift from me sooner or later. There’s a pair of Cole Haan oxfords I’ve been eyeing with great lust in my heart. I’m trying to hold out until they go on sale, but we’ll see how successful that is (read: not very). They’re pricey, but I know I’ll wear them all fall. Curating my shoe collection has been the hardest part. Now that I’m not driving, I don’t have to worry about practical shoes to drive in. At the same time, I walk a lot more and heels aren’t so much conducive to that. I have some flats that I love, but they’re too small. Like the pants, they were expensive and I hate to give them up. At the same time, they don’t fit, so what’s the point in keeping them around? My feet aren’t going to shrink. I wish shoe stores had a try before you buy period. They may feel okay in the store, but once you’ve walked around in them all day, it’s another story. I’ve got pairs that don’t look so great any more even if they’re comfortable. Anthro and Free People also have some shoes and boots on my wish list.
On the epilepsy front, once I’m tapered totally off the Keppra, I should have more energy to get exercise and keep this figure. At minimum, I can keep walking during my lunch break. The Lamictal will definitely amp me up a bit, even out my mood, and it doesn’t have any weight gain side effects. I say again, woohoo! My neurologist said if I’d seen her first, she never would’ve put me on the Keppra in the first place. Live and learn, I suppose. I’ll be off the Keppra by the end of the month. Until then, it’s a matter of getting up and making myself get some serious exercise. It was recommended as part of the self care for epilepsy, after all. As Boy pointed out, I need to lower my expectations a bit. I can’t consider my seizures under control until I can live my life the way I want to. I should be able to go to concerts. I should be able to stay up past 10p. I should be able to do what I want when I want and not be controlled by the disorder. It’s going to be a process. I had my first full dose of Lamictal yesterday. I’ve been graduated to 3 month follow ups. When I see her again in December, they’ll do blood work to determine the baseline levels. They’ll probably also do another EEG, but that wasn’t confirmed. I figure I should go in expecting it and be pleasantly surprised if it doesn’t happen. December will be here before I know it. Until then, keep on truckin’.