One week from today is the first day of the Summer Intensive. After reading the description over a few times, it’s geared toward dancers who are significantly more experienced than I am. Even though the studio assured me it was for all levels, I know I’m going to walk in there as one of the least experienced dancers. It’s not that I’m not properly trained. I’ve had solid training, but I haven’t been using it regularly.
I plan on taking a few classes before the SI starts just to get a feel for the studio again. That will be a good test to see where I stand (or plie or jete) overall. The technique class in particular will definitely put that in perspective. Every time I get a little anxious, I think back to an experience I had in high school. My school offered four levels of dance. The fourth level was called Dance Company and required an audition to get in. At that point, I had just started taking ballet and had about 3 years of jazz under my belt. A friend of mine who had been dancing since she was 5 didn’t want to go to the audition by herself. She asked me to audition with her. I knew I was in no way prepared to participate, but I agreed anyway. I knew up front there was no way I was getting in, so I went in with no expectations. About a week later, they announced the new members. My friend, of course, was picked. I shrugged it off and kept going. The teacher later pulled me to the side and told me that the other judge (an outside choreographer) had thought I was a solid performer. She was impressed by my effort. I’d done the best with what I had and it was recognized. I’ll do the best with what I have this time around and see what happens. If nothing else, I’m going to have a good time. The other dancers aren’t looking at me anyway.
If you’re feeling inadequate whether it’s your job or tying to plant your own garden, do the best you can with what you have. If you’ve invested yourself in it, that will show. Smile and hold your head high. You’ve got this.
Motivational Tidbit Takeaway: Leave it all on the dance floor.